Music & I

I was sitting back in my chair, tapping my feet and listening to some jazz song on the radio. I started to think about the first song that i really listened to and liked. It was "Beat It" by Michael Jackson. I thought i was so cool running around the house with my button-up shirt open, singing the song while spinning around in circles. I remember when i started to like rap music. It was somewhere in 1996 i believe. Busta Rhymes had just released a solo album and i begged my mother to take me to the music store to buy it. I played one song from the cd every day that i got home from school. That is when i focused more on the messages in music.

Some people just nod their house while ignoring the lyrics. I sit back and listen to every word that is said. I went back into my mothers tape and cd deck. I took all of her old 2 Pac cds and listened to every one of them in my room. Being that i did not have a real father around, music was something of a father and teacher to me, So it was a very important piece on the puzzle that is my life. Sometimes the music can be negative. Rappers were starting to be more successful by glorifying violence and hate. See, music is more than music. It is someones lifestyle, mentor and influence. If you hear your favorite rapper saying "get a gun and kill a motherfucka" then it pumps you up to do just that. I think it depends on how weak minded a person is. That is when me and music started to have a bad relationship.

Now days i turn on the television and see rappers sitting around these expensive cars with diamonds around their neck and these model hoes around them. I turn on the radio and hear the same shit. muder him, fuck this bitch, get high and fuck the world. It seems like they are giving people a blueprint on how to fail. I remember watching a bunch of dumb bitches dance to a club song were the lyrics said "drop that ass, bitch. grab my dick, its yours, bitch!" i asked one girl how could she dance to it and she said "i like the beat" SMH... stupid hoe.

Music artist wonder why their records arent selling like they did before. I buy a cd now and come to find out, there is only one song on the entire cd that actually has quality and replay value. It's all repetitive garbage that has been said many times before. I buy a music cd maybe twice a year. This year so far, i have only purchased three albums. The Busta Rhymes cd was good. Nas' new album is fair, but i dont like his character. I like that new artist, Joell Ortiz. His entire cd is quality. Ah how i miss those days when i would pop in a new cd and sit through every song. Now days you have to skip through most of the cd to get to the good song. and people wonder why i like jazz and classical music now. Classical music really does not have a message. Jazz is never negative. You can't go wrong with those.

Rock is okay sometimes, but there are too many bands trying to duplicate the old acts. Too many of these fake ass depressed emo bands that talk in the same old suicidal hurtful tone, but then i see them at the mtv awards and they don't look suicidal to me. They look happy and successful. The music artist now don't give a fuck about the listener. They say whatever makes money. Young kids with no religion or direction, in search of a mentor or an answer. They listen to the shit that these artist say now and they go shoot up schools and commit suicide. ,usic and me... we have an off-and-on type of relationship.

I flip through radio channells and all i hear is crap music. I havent watched one new video from BET, VH1 or MTV because they are all owned by the same company that tells them to play the same type of music. I hear rappers now days talking all this killing shit with some nursery rhyme song in the background. What type of bullshit is that? Rappers are taking childrens elementary songs and putting sex, drugs and violence over them to target the children and adolescent audience. They dont give a shit anymore. They know that older men and women have more sense to not take it serious and support dumb artist like that, so they are trying to get the ear of children. I dont respect this new music. I guess i will stick with my classical and jazz.

I look at music like that one girlfriend that you love and hate off and on. Some days she can be good and supportive. You enjoy everything about her. Then she starts that bullshit and you need your space from her. lol. Music genres are like a group of females, all friends with each other. hip hop music was the first girl of the group that i started to like. Now she gets on my damn nerves and i'd rather tather mess around with her other friends. haha.

MOST PLAYED CDS THIS MONTH

1. Hip Hop Is Dead - by Nas
2. The Blueprint - by Jay-Z
3. Mood Muzik 2 - by Joe Budden
4. The Big Bang - by Busta Rhymes
5. The Brick - by Joell Ortiz
6. Revolutionary 1,2 - Immortal Technique
7. Mmm, Food? - by MF Doom

April's Review (blah blah blah)

I really enjoyed this month. So much went happened but everything is good. The month started with me being fired. What may have been bad news to others was damn good news to me. I have been trying to be more responsible and take care of the more important things in my life, like paying bills and putting some money to the side for the time comes to get my own place. My job put me behind on a couple of bills and back a couple of bucks in saved money by cutting my checks. Another thing that pissed me off was their random schedules, just throwing people at whatever time they felt they needed the help. It would have been a different story if they gave me notice three days before they did it, but they never did. I tried being the nice guy that everyone loves, but there comes times where i have to bring back the old Chris, so it happened and i got fired.After i left the store i felt like dancing in the street.

I didnt have to wake up and put on a fake smile for bitch ass customers and their shitty attitudes. Like the people that come and ask dumbass questions and then catch attitudes for stupid shit. I wish they would pop that shit to me in the street when i am off the clock. That store made me want to beat the hell out of somebody. Another thing that pissed me off was the little punk ass managers that ran that dump. One always thought that i wasnt doing my job, so she would always ask me "what are you doing?" MY JOB, BITCH. What the fuck it look like? The other was a guy but acted like a little bitch om pms or something. Always moody and complaining like a broad. I hate people that smile in your face, acting like they are your friends but really do not like you. Fuck all that. That is where my ghetto side comes out. Let me know how you feel about me to my face, not to the next person. I dont give a fuck though. Anybody that don't like me or goes against me can die slow. I'm doing shit my way.

I'm not the type to let anyone play me for a bitch. If i feel disrespected then you will know. So definetly everyone there knew that it was on once i got pissed.With some jobs, you have to deal with being yelled at, disrespected and talked to like a dog. I guess that is why i could never work those type of jobs. I dont play that shit and i dont give a fuck who you are and where you rank in the business, You will still get cussed the fuck out by me. So i let everybody know what was up and i left. I know one thing though, i was going to get all of my money they owed me, or somebody was going to pay for it with their jaw. No tough-guy talk. thats really how i felt. Dont play with my money and i won't play with your life.

Enough of that. The rest of the month was great. I got to spend more time with the lady, as she spent a couple of nights at my place. For the first time, we didnt spend a week at a theater. We usually go and see all the hot new movies thats out, but i guess nothing good was playing at the time. I'm so sick of all the scary movies that come out and they arent scary at all. Its a waste of money. DO NOT WASTE YOUR MONEY ON DEAD SILENCE. I thought the movie would be good, being that it was made by the same people who made Saw or whatever. That movie was mad dumb.I'm just writing whatever comes up in my head right now.

I know i did not write this corrently but i dont give a fuck about making a blog look correct and pretty, so if i misspelled some shit DONT TELL ME because i dont give a fuck.Well, it's almost May and i have to decide where of the four options i want to work at. I'm looking at what pays more but the schedule is also an issue. I'll think about it later. My girlie should be in the house by now so i need to find out what's going on with her. I'll follow up with another entry later on during the weekend. oh, by the way, have a good weekend.

DVDS I HAVE TO GET

1. Minority Report
2. The Departed
3. Lucky Number Sleven
4. Smokin' Aces
5. The James Bond Collection

RECENTLY ADDED TO MY CD COLLECTION

1. Food And Liquor 0 by: Lupe Fiasco
2. Hip Hop Is Dead - by: Nasir Jones
3. The Brick:Bodega Chronicals - by: Joell Ortiz
4. Revolutionary Vol.2 - by: Immortal Technique

Just a little test entry.

Lately i have been trying to sort all of the stuff that is constantly racing in my brain. I was thinking that maybe this blog thing might help with that. I will give it a try later on today maybe. Until then, live with this test entry.

THINGS TO DO 4/18

1. Pay my damn cell phone bill
2. Buy that new phone
3. Pay that cable bill
4. Decide which of the three places i would rather work.
5. Do this blog crap more often.
6. Movie night IN
7. Think about a new clothing style for self. Casual maybe?
8. Get those Ian Fleming books
9. Rearrange the room, You will be here for three more months.
10. Stop putting off going to the building and just do it.
11. Change things up. You have been Same Ol You for too damn long.
12. Boxing Sparr and Challenge this Friday? Yay or Nay?